昨天考试终于通过了,很开心~~觉得终于可以看到点希望,也终于开始对自己有一点点信心了~~

 

回头看看,到LONDON那么久了,居然还没有上传任何照片;这也许正好证明我过去的一个月生活的多么的压抑~~~还好,事情终于开始有了转晴的迹象~~我真的真的很谢谢大家在这段时间给我的鼓励! 如果没有你们大家的关心,我自己可能真的度过不了这个低谷吧~

 

虽然接下来的2周还有考试,虽然周围的人依然那么强那么强,虽然压力还是那么大,虽然CHALLENGE总是源源不断的出现~~但是我一定会坚强的走下去,因为我知道你们都在看着我,都在支持我,我怎能让你们失望!~~

 

很想写一个THANKS LIST,但发现真的真的太多人感谢,而每个人都从不同的角度帮我分析问题,帮我度过难关~~在美国的ROMANCE和MAGE,;在HK的HEIDI, BING, BONG,HAIYAN和SUEN,;在伦敦的同事们OSCAR,MIC,TONY,VIENNA,TAD, LUVISA, JOHNY...以及伦敦的朋友们ALVIN,ROBERTO;在新加坡的ZHENG;在祖国大陆的所有的亲们KEVIN, CHRIS, 林家小坏蛋, ELEN, 蔡蔡, CECIL, TIAN WEN, JANE ZHANG, ZHIZHI, EDION; 还有我最最亲爱的爸爸妈妈! 真的真的谢谢你们!

 

也许我这个月以来都没跟你们很多人联系,但我每天晚上都很想你们~真的~~

 

在此,祝福即将踏上荷兰领土的KEVIN,和即将/已经回国的SUSIE, 还在桂林努力拼搏的ELEN和牛, 正在伦敦努力申请工作的ALVIN和ROBERTO,以及所有和我一样面临着新的环境的大家,希望我们都能坚强的度过一开始的最艰难的时刻,不经理风雨,怎么见彩虹,相信我们都能笑到最后,因为我们拥有彼此!

 

把话说出来,感觉好多了~~请原谅我的罗嗦~~收拾好心情,我又要继续战斗啦!"革命尚未完成,同志还需努力!"

 

先上少量照片,因为真的没心情出去玩~~变胖了好多,大家不要笑哈~~

从小到大,从来没有像现在这样害怕考试

 

我想说,我现在真的很不快乐

 

到伦敦快一个月了

 

可我好象还是不适应

 

我很想回家

 

我还是会在凌晨惊醒

 

对不起,我真的坚强不起来

 

如果星期六再FAIL,我不知道自己该如何面对这份工作

 

It's the hardest time in my life so far

 

Boy you best pray that i bleed real soon

I m not gonna make any excuse

but things are getting worse

I just dont understand what's going wrong with me

I look like a fool and I just can't relax

 

Mic said

Susan, you have to grow up

you are no more a student

moreoever, you are working in this industry

you have to be stronger, be professional, be an I-Banker

you'll learn to take it easy and f**k it back!

 

But any body knows

I am not that agressive I am not that ambitious I am not that kinda person to trade off my hapiness with money!!!

So why I m here?

Why i have to be some one else?

 

Could any body give me a hug? 

 

If not, it's time to make a change~~

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Though so many bad news updated, I have to inform you guys that I am heading for New York next month~~

So~~~

1.Mage: Remember to pick me up at the airport on Sep 16, and~~prepare for clubbing from now on~~haha

2.Romance: it's has been years that we wait for this day^^Fly to me from Seattle then!

3.Phoebe: will hang out with you soon!^^

4.Those who will be in the US until mext March: Leave me a note and I will call you up when I arrive^^